last published on feb. 18

'Published' makes this sound much more important than what this really is: a mindless blog that I attend to only when I can make myself do it. Pretty much the story of my life. I'll do the dishes, but I hate those pots and pans, so those may sit there for a day or two. Perhaps if I listen to music while I do this, I could be more inspired, but it doesn't help that I do not own a CD player, save for the one in my car, although the LED lights don't work, so I don't know which track I'm actually playing. I've memorized most of the important CD's and radio stations because of this. This unusual LED problem also leads to a constant flickering light on my trunk door that never ceases in it's blinking. I've had many a people warn me of a drained battery, but alas, LED does not drain your battery, thank goodness.

So, last week I recieved some pretty crappy news that put me in a major funk. I applied to the PharmD program for the second time, and for the second time, did not receive an interview. Needless to say, my dreams were crushed, and I seriously wanted to destroy the UT College of Pharmacy. I know that I may not seem impressive on paper, but I am pretty awesome in person and I wish I could have gotten the chance to show these nincompoops that I could make a damn fine drug dispenser, had they given me the time. I would be tons better than those uber-nerds that have no life but studying (honestly, how will these people survive in the real world?). Alas, I resorted to plan B: Nursing school. I now plan to work towards a BSN in nursing. I hope to eventually become a nurse on the maternity ward, even though I know that this is the hardest area of the hospital to get into. I guess I always have to pick the most difficult route. I am not 'settling' by becoming a nurse, it's something that I've thought of being since I had Omri. The nurses at St. Ann's were so amazing that I wanted to be like them, have an impact on someone's life in one of the most crazy/amazing/life-changing experiences that they will ever have. Bringing babies into the world, how amazing! I briefly flirted with the idea of becoming a flow blown OB/GYN, but Dr. Marlowe warned me that the insurance overhead was astronomical these days, with all the lawsuit-happy people out there. Plus, nurses do the brunt of the work anyways, they get to hold the babies!

On the home front, Popeye (our goldfish) has recently acquired a new crib, and is living large and in style (i.e.-10 gallon rectangle tank, awesome log to hide in, super cool algae plant). Of course this means that we need another fish, because he looks ridiculous in there by himself. So I tell Omri that tomorrow we are going to get Popeye a 'friend' and I ask her what she would like to name the new fishy. She replies 'friend'. Oh, Omri, your silliness never ceases to brighten even the gloomiest of times. She was so lovable the day I found out about the Pharm D program, with extra lovin', and I just had to have her sleep next to me that night, for comfort. Although, she is doing quite well sleeping through the night in her bed. Olive has had a few 6 hour nights in a row, I hope this is a new 'pattern' for her! She is so adorable right now, smiling up a storm, and 'talking' away. She loves kisses on her chubby little cheeks, that always gets her going.

I took both girls to the mall with me Sunday (with aunt Kerry to help), and that was fun, Olive slept away in the stoller, while Omri behaved (mostly) for Kerry. I found several pairs of shorts for myself for $12! I was excited. Then, at Borders, I raided the bargain children's section for a few My Little Pony books for Omri (one with a puzzle--her latest love, and the other a mini Magna-Doodle), and a few Baby Einstein and Elmo books for Olive, all about $3 to 4.

Anyways, I should attend to some schoolwork, no time to slack now! I WILL GRADUATE SOMEDAY. i think i can, i think i can. Hm, that's a book I need to get for the girls!